blabber
i'm sick and it sucks. So, it just started with the sniffles, now i got a fever and my chest hurts soooo bad!! i must have a really bad cold.
i got a job. woohoo and boohoo. i'm excited about it, seems like fun, but now i can't come home for the holidays and i miss my mom.
school is GREAT!! i'm actually into it again, like, studying and stuff. i've scored the highest in all my classes on the exams and papers and i'm in a really fun journalism class, so thats cool.
still debating on whether or not to stay here and finish the other degree at aiu, or come back home and go to howard. if i come home i want my own place, i aint tryna go back to mommy's house. not that i mind living with mommy, but i just really enjoy my own space.
my roommate is driving me nuts. she's so annoying sometimes. way too flippin' nosey and she's such a goofball and can be mad ignorant at times (i hate that i've picked up all this way ass slang like 'mad') she keeps ending up in crappy ass situations and doesn't wanna take responsibility for her chickenhead actions that lead her there.
larissa's having a hard time with hubba. i think she's realizing that she needs to do her own thing. i feel really bad. wish i could help out in some way.
leon is back again, odd. i dont know whats wrong with him and i dont know why i can't ever just close the door completely. its weird. maybe i'm just lonely and enjoy his company. EWWie, he mentioned meeting my mom. no way jose.
i really really like rj but he's weird too.. one minute we're cool as hell having a good time getting to know each other, the next minute he's saying i don't like him anymore or that girls like me never give him a chance.. WHATEVER THAT MEANS..
jason and i made up again too, but then he pissed me off again. we were supposed to drive home together for howards homecoming, then i got the job, then we decided not to go, then he and i were gonna go to the gym, and he was like no i just wanna go play basketball, but the court is by hsi house an di woulda had to spen dthe night and i dind't wanna spend the night, then he wanted to do something els,e and i was just like look, u asked me to go with you, so lets just go make up your mind, at this point i'm sleepy and doen't wanna do anything but i promised him. so 2 hours later he's finally like lets not go, when the truth was HE AINT WANNA GO FROM THE START and all he had to do was say so, so i got mad at him and told him he needs to grow up and learn to be more assertive and stop always beating around the bush, and he says i should learn to read between the lines.. WTF, IF YOU ASKED ME TO GO AND MAKE ME PROMISE AND U CHANGE UR MIND< JUST SAY U CHANGE UR MIND why the fuck i gotta decipher some hidden code about u wanting to be a lazy ass and stay home? dumb ass niggas man. i told him i was fed up with his bullshit and to lose my number. i'm just not in the mood for nonsense anymore at this point.. granted we were just friends.. but fuck, i dont need anymore friends.
malik's music looks like its taking off.. lot of good stuff happening for him. the album is freakin' awesome.
i can't WAIT!!
i really feel awful but i can't sleep and nyquil aint takin its toll yet..
i got a new phone, again, keep breaking em.
my cousin brian called me. i havne't seen him since, gosh, i can't even remember. some holiday.. or a funeral? shit.. i can't remember.. whenever i was in savannah last. anyway, we're horrible about keepin in touch. ima make more of an effort this time. we're supposed to hang out on sunday. we said we'd start running together.
i'm getting really obsessive about my weight and appearance. somedays i don't even eat, another day i ate some soup and crackers and thought i ate too many calories and contemplated throwing up, and then not eating the next day to balance it, or go to the gym and run for an hour.. i need to nip that in the bud before it gets outta control. its weird. rissa is getting the same way, she wont even go on dates until she thinks she's weight appropriate. its crazy. larissa is gettin weird with her eating habits too. too much pressure in this industry i think.
i'm gonna be a lard ass and be fine with it! *sikeeeeeeeeee* i'm gonna be boney again!
i think allen is coming on friday. he's said he's coming like 20 times and he aint been yet we'll see.
tye!! tye called!! i miss him, he wants to be cool again. we got in a HUGE fight the last time i got home. i just dont understand boys. he and i have been cool for like the last 5 6 years, just friends. last time i came home, e called me and asked me to meet him at club 5 to see ucb play, tye called and was like what u doing so i told him des and i were going to club 5, he met us there, so i'm talking to e, and met a couple of other boys, and tye gets mad, we get in the car, he had to drive mom's car for me cuz i drank a lil too much, and my phone keeps ringing, one of the boys i met calling, this nigga takes my phone and throws it out the window flippin out on me saying i'm disrespecting him? WHAT!? nigga we're friends.. and u holla'in at some chick at the bar.. what the fuck do i look like? anyway, we aint talked SINCE THEN, he called me told me he got a raise, some other stuff, says he wants to come down and visit in 2 weeks when he gets back from l.a., we'll see.
i hate that most of my friends are boys. cuz now a days the friendship line is so complicated. all these niggas all of a sudden wanna act like we're dating when we've always just been friends putting pressure on me..
*sigh*
malik's the only one who aint never gotten funny acting. *i miss lickus soo much!!* he supposedly is coming to atl too to meet with outkasts' managers in a few weeks so i'll get to see him!!
speaking of e, he broke his knee. poor thing.
OOO, we got to go to visions vip with russel simmons and his buddies for a voters thing.. larissa is interning with him, and i helped out, and he invited us as his guests and we got to go! and shaq was there.. DUDE I LIKE COME UP TO SHAQ's NUTSACK that nigga is TALL!! i was just standing near him like :-0 we got free babyphat sneaks.. they are so f'in ugly, ima see if i can sneakily take em to footlocker and get a giftcard. i saw this boy i was dating when i first got here there, and lost contact when my nextel broke and i moved, so he and i exchanged numbers again, he just started his own business.. good luck to him.
marc is annoying as fuck now!! gosh.
ron is being weird. i havne't talked to him talked to him in a few days, we haven't hung out in a week or 2. ig uess we're both just busy wtih class and shit. i dont know, he's being weird.
i have so much work due this week, for the event planning class i have to plan two events, do all this research and write all these business proposals, this shit is time consuming, then i have 2 articles due for f.j., and have an exam to study for in creative writing and princ. of management.. i tried to get the princ. of management out of the way for the WHOLE WEEK so i cn focus on just the e.p. stuff for the rest of the week.
omg, augustin and dagni got fired at a.x. we had got this top in mens, fishnet, and augustin dared all the girls to try it on and offered money. sophia did it, i declined, dana did it, augustin never gave them the money he promised, somehow it got back to vanessa, and augustin and dagni were fired bc dagni knew about it and did nothing, and it was inapporpriate behaviou for management. *boohoo* i'm thinkin about going back in february, but then again nordstrom is opening up.
oo oooo i'm getting a car!!!!!!!!!!
mommy and i discussed it. i get a car. YIPPEE KAI YAI YAY! january. *yipee* dude, mom is droppin me. i'm officially independent. i'm also looking for a condo here.. complicates shit even more! i'm just paying way too much to be splittin an apt with 3 others girls. 775 is killin momma, and i can purchase a condo for only 5-6 something a month.. but if i come home it'll change shit!!
what to do!!!
2004-11-05/12:54 a.m.